I have felt so yucky this week. I’ve been extremely sensitive and I have VERY good reason to be. There has been a lot of shifts & changes in our family just within the last 3 days. I feel like I’ve just been through a mental battle and I really…idk. I need something to lift me, I just need deep breaths…
& fresh love. Don’t get any ideas. I’m sure anyone that has ever gone this long without affection feels the same. It really is the act of affection, that puts my heart into motion. I need fresh LOVE. I want to LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. I LOVE making LOVE. I LOVE being LOVED. I love love. I want your love. HAHA. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
But for real. I have been needing fresh love. I know I get it from my babies everyday, but I’m talking about the love from a woman to mon. Sparks will be flying when I get my hands on my lover. Can’t wait :)
Just by talking about LOVE I feel so much more positive. Starting off extra fresh tomorrow. I need it. I need deep breaths. I need to make fresh love…I need to redeem myself. But in the meantime…I’m feeling exactly like Mary Oliver when she wrote this poem.
The Summer Day
Who made the world?
Who made the swan, and the black bear?
Who made the grasshopper?
This grasshopper, I mean-
the one who has flung herself out of the grass,
the one who is eating sugar out of my hand,
who is moving her jaws back and forth instead of up and down-
who is gazing around with her enormous and complicated eyes.
Now she lifts her pale forearms and thoroughly washes her face.
Now she snaps her wings open, and floats away.
I don’t know exactly what a prayer is.
I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down
into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,
how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,
which is what I have been doing all day.
Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?
Today we went to the beach and celebrated Mrs. Jes’ birthday :) She took this picture of me and my girl…my favorite picture ever in the whole wide world right now. She’s so precious and dear to me….my smile is so genuine and only because I have her by my side…
I have been major lagging on the blogging. You’ll have to excuse me. I’ve been busy doing nothing. HAHA!